Britney Spears Speaks Her Mind in Six New Voice Notes: Full Transcript

Britney Spears isn't letting up with her candid comments on social media, after posting more provocative pictures and more confessional voice notes.

The pop star has recently detailed her life within a conservatorship, spoken about her ex-husband Kevin Federline, and even spoken out about her sons distancing themselves from her.

Over the weekend, Spears posted several more voice notes to her Instagram account.

Since posting her recordings Spears also posted a picture of herself naked from behind, suggesting she may never perform again, and telling her dad to kiss her a**.

Here's the full transcript from Spears' six new audio recordings.

They were seemingly posted out of sequence, so Newsweek has reordered them into an order that makes sense.

Britney Spears Audio Clip #1: 3 minutes and 8 seconds

"Okay, so I woke up this morning. And I honestly feel like I just have a lot to say. And I have a lot to share with. Yes, I do have a therapy guy that I talked to, but he's only available certain times of the week, and usually once a week, and I think in my head, it's really crucial for me to feel like I can share.

And if it's the dumbest thing in the world that I do is share on my Instagram, my thoughts. If it's dumb, so be it because I honestly feel like it helps me.

Like three years ago, I used to do AA meetings. I was never able to miss any meetings, most of the girls would choose their meetings, and sometimes they go and sometimes they wouldn't.

But the way my dad made it for me, I had to go no matter what, I couldn't miss any meetings, and I couldn't even choose the meetings I went to. So it felt forced. So I haven't been back in a really long time.

Number one, because when you're forced to do something, it's kind of like, you kind of don't want to go back there and do it but I secretly did like going. I liked hearing that people's stories, but the problem was, I had hours and hours of week. I just sat there in silence.

They were always like, 'do you want to speak? Do you want to speak?' And I never got up to speak because I perform and stuff, but my heart, I'm very introverted and shy if you told me to get a microphone and get up and talk, I would literally probably crawl in a hole and cry.

So I obviously have a lot going on my brain. I'm just like, being in a recluse and being shy and not being able to open up, so this morning, I woke up and honestly, I just had a couple of things I wanted to say.

So I am showing two pictures right now I'm reflecting back [...] this is a month ago at me and my gym in my garage. I literally have to force myself to get the hell out of my head and breathe and literally look at my hands, close them together and look up and say, 'okay, am I praying right now?' Like my hands just kind of do it for me. I don't even have to think about it. I'm like, 'What am I doing?' Are my hands trying to tell me something. And my husband believes in universal power. There's a higher power we can connect to.

I was born Baptist and my mother is Catholic. And I've practiced Judaism. When I was younger, I actually had a rabbi come and visit me a couple of times a month when I went through a huge breakup a really long time ago because I needed help spiritually. He'd visit me on tours and things and it did really help me out. But when I got married, it all stopped.

I had children and my whole focus was on my children. Of course. I loved it though. They were my world. You know, my, my focus my everything I believed, honestly the huge factor just a miracle the fact that a body and a woman could produce such a miracle.

That in of itself was my belief and my purpose. So for four years, actually people forgot I used to have my kids, way more than Kevin people only actually ... "

Britney Spears Audio Clip #2: 46 seconds

"Yeah, I used to have my kids, at one point, way more than Kevin. I mean, people don't remember that part because they always focus on the negative, but from when they were six to nine years old, I had them 70 percent of the time.

And of course, since they've been gone, I've honestly felt like a huge part of me has died. And like literally, I have no purpose anymore. They were my joy. They were my everything. I look forward to seeing them. That was what I live for.

And then all of a sudden, they were gone. And I was like, 'did my heart just stop beating?' And honestly, I don't understand how it's so easy for them just to cut me off like that. I don't understand it. And ..."

Britney Spears Audio Clip #3: 1 minute 16 seconds

"Um, so yes, I do, basically, communication with horses. It's called quarantine therapy but literally after like 45 minutes, you know, you're like you're talking to a f****** horse. Um, but it honestly is a different reflection.

And I feel like my reflection with people is not very clear. And I think it's almost like I need to break through a wall or make contact and I know it's an old story, but the psychological damage in not having real contact in that place and, you know, eight hours of just like, communicating by just sitting in a chair and their big smiles and asking me questions and studying me.

It's just like, I couldn't come out of my seat and I wanted to get the f*** out of there. I mean, Jesus Christ, how come by law these people can just like do this and make me think think think and, not just most people would say 'I'd like to be asked questions like that.' But no, it was more of like, 'we're studying you' like I was a science lab or like, you know, and I'm saying this because God knows I'm not perfect, but as you know, I'm taking each day at a time but ..."

Britney Spears Audio Clip #4: 54 seconds

"Yes, I'm taking each day at a time but I honestly want to see with clear eyes. I feel like if I just could have came out of my seat and slapped the person in front of me at that place, I would have made some sort of contact.

I feel like they ghosted me or made me feel like I wasn't present because I was so scared and fearful of the whole situation. It was like I wanted to do like some sort of break through a wall and I feel like my family they cut me off of everything I knew.

I did feel like they were trying to kill me. And my AA meetings, my kids, my car, getting dressed privately. Watching me change daily, the, you know, eight vials of blood, not gallons but eight vials of blood weekly. Like none of it made sense."

Britney Spears Audio Clip #5: 3 minute 12 seconds

And honestly, none of it felt legal. That was the main thing. And with my kids now, making the claims that 'she's not good enough, she wants attention.' Yeah, I do want to be heard and I'm angry, and I kind of subconsciously want to offend people, because I've been so f****** offended.

But I'm afraid to inform you guys. I'm not willing to see you until I feel valued. I won't be calling your monitor weekly, who never did his job of informing me of when you guys were coming.

They made me the desperate one. You guys waiting, two guys waiting two days for me to respond on when you guys could see me. And I never said any of this at the time because I was desperate to see you guys and I wanted to see you guys so bad.

But honestly, I should have valued myself way more. And told you guys when I was available. I gave you guys so much attention. It was pathetic. And what happened to parents owning the nest the kids like the mother, like my mother did. She never knew where I was. And we lived in the South. I mean, I know it's different now, but she was on the phone all day.

I mean, I didn't even exist 1,000 percent. I walked through the woods to my neighbor's house three times a day, weekly, and nobody even knew I was gone. So I don't understand the strategic way of parenting and knowing the exact sugar count of your child's intake each day.

I mean, I'm like 'feed your kid f****** oatmeal with a touch of sugar' and so what if what if your baby's eyes open his or her eyes open a little bit more. I want to see my child's open the the numbness and the not caring look at their age as teenagers. Too lazy. I know I sound horrible. But the first thing I did when I saw them before I fed them even their meal. I gave them ice cream. I wanted to see their eyes open.

All I know is my love for my children is more than anything, and I'm sorry if ever hurt you guys in any way. And me saying 'I'm a child of God' is something I shouldn't have said it, said to you guys and me saying it's my turn to say so that's something I should have said to my father. I've always been told the only person who can fix your heart is the one who broke it.

Go to the source. He needs to be told but that will never happen because I pray he burns in hell. But until then Jaden and Preston I adore you. I was told you guys have blocked me. But I will speak here I hope you're using your punching bag I gave you you guys are unbelievable in the gym. Happy early birthday. You guys can do pull ups. Wow. Wow. Your skill and everything you do. I'm so blessed to even call you mine and I just want you to know I apologize. My ignorance in saying no. I'm saying so to you guys, because that was meant for my fa[ther].

Spears then waited several hours before posting a sixth audio recording.

Britney Spears Audio Clip #6: 1 minute 59 seconds

"Okay, so another thing I haven't really shared, which is one of the weirdest things I've ever encountered, I had three MRIs before I went to that place, I wasn't complaining about anything I was just told I had to go, was my dad and I had no rights at the time. So I basically had to.

So I did it and I was immediately like, why am I having to go to do these MRIs so many times, because when I was younger, I had a cyst on my chest when I was like eight years old. They did an MRI, because they thought it was cancer, but it wasn't, it was completely fine. So whenever I hear the word MRI, I kind of was like, 'Oh, that's a big deal. Like something must be wrong with me or whatever.'

But I remember when I was younger, and I was like eight, and I stayed in that machine for no more than 30 minutes, if that needed to be still and you had to do it all over again if you moved.

But when I went during the conservatorship right before they sent me to that place, I did it three times. And I stayed in there for an hour each time, which is a lot of being still and had to go back three times.

And so the whole thing didn't make sense. The isolation, the nurses, the vials blood, the constant communication, and I swear to God, it was some sort of, to me, I was like, 'Wait, is this a new kind of cancer treatment? That's why they sent me away to this place.'

They didn't want me to know is that what's the big secret, like? And so yeah, I was basically really kind of confused, you know? So honestly, yeah, again, I wanted to believe that because maybe it made more sense, but none of that was true. None of that is true. I'm fine. I'm alive. And if my dad, the conclusion, the hardest thing is to just know that they were just being mean, and I really felt like my dad was trying to kill me, and I hope he burns in f****** hell."

Newsweek has reached out to representatives for Britney Spears and Jamie Spears for comment.